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| If you have even looked at my site, then you know that I don't post all that often. Today however sees me posting something that I feel strongly about. The need for legislature to keep protesters from befouling a families grief on the day of the funeral of their loved one.
Lafayette, Indiana, a few days ago, had an article on the front page of a family who's son was killed in Iraq. Spc Matthew Franz was brought home to Lafayette to be buried at home. The Lafayette Journal and Courier printed an article so that friends of the family and anyone that grieved for the loss of a community member could go and console the family or themselves grieve for the loss of a loved one.
What the family did get instead was the same religious (? term used loosely) fanatics that protested Matthew Sheperd's funeral in Laramie, Wyoming. This group bore signs stating that fags were the reason he was killed and that Brokeback Mountain caused his death and one sign that clearly read "Thank God for the death of soldiers." Was he even gay? From accounts I am hearing the son that died, Matthew, was not gay, but homosexuals were to blame.
He fought so people could have freedom and the same freedom that he fought for saw these monsters use it against his family in an effort to bring disgrace against homosexuals. Where did dignity go in the last few centuries? People in the United States have lost all morals, dignity and shame. To do something like this is just plain evil in all the sence evil is. There was no thought of how this might affect a families time of grief, especially since the sign thanking God for the deaths of soldiers was plain for the family to see on the way to the bury their son, the soldier.
I have never been more embarrased to live in this city in my life until tonight. My heart goes out to this grieving family for all the heartache they had to endure the other day at the funeral for their son. I feel the shame that the protesters obviously had none of and I feel a loss of moral dignity.
I'm GAY and I did not kill their son, Brokeback Mountain did not kill their son and the family themselves, nor God killed their son. What killed their son was the pure and simple fact that he fought for your rights and mine. He died protecting your rights and you slam his family with insults. Well I earned my rights also, after serving 8 years in the Air Force and so I earned the right to tell you protesters FUCK YOU!!!!
If you find it so painfully hard to live in a society that allows gays to marry and people to live harmoniously, then do us all a favor and go find your own country to call home. Because, I sure as hell don't want you fuckers in mine!!!!
My condolences (sic) to the family of Spc Matthew Franz and to the family of Matthew Sheperd (? something against Matthews?) and to all families that have had to go through something like this. God bless everyone, including the demonically possessed group of protesters that say they have a religious right to hate. Even God doesn't hate and guess what people....GOD IS HOLIER THAN THOU!!!
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| Why should I have to do everything in life ALONE? I get told tonight that S. had already cheated on the quitting smoking. Well I told him tonight he is not allowed to smoke or buy any and he says "Why not? So you won't feel like you're doing it alone?" Why the FUCK not?!! I do everything else alone as it is!!!! Why should I fail when my best friend is not going to follow through with it in any way shape or form? I have fucking failed everything else in my miserable fucking life so I am not going to fail this also!~!!@!!~!!gZS. | | |
| In 4 hours S. and I will have had our first full day as non-smokers.  We quit smoking yesterday, not because of money (which the extra will come in handy), but because we wanted our health to improve and energy levels to increase.
God what a feeling to be so hyper in just one day LOL, I can't sit still for friggen nothing, but now that I am alone again; I really want a cigarette. I know it's only been close to 24 hours without, but.....S. also said he would go be my workout partner at the local gym.
I turned 38 the 20th of this month and I feel like it's about damn time to start looking the way I feel like I should look. Going to start working out and ripping my gut, butt and so on...tighening, firming and getting some of the excess in the middle regions shrunk and other regions will hopefully increase 
Wish me luck for my life is taking a drastic turn for the better, IMHO   | | |
| Well been almost a month since my last entry....update, the car is not fixed..I said screw it and got a new one. My friend S. is going to buy the motor and another friend is going to install it and I will sign the car over to S. so that he will have a vehicle of his own.
I have gotten better at just being a friend to him, but the love I feel has gotten much stronger....somehow I think it's the trying to pull back thing that is making me even closer to him. He hugs me now when he leaves and I hold him a little bit each time. Sometimes longer and sometimes shorter and he allows it. He knows I love him and he accepts it, he says he loves me as a friend, but I feel it will develop further as long as I stick by him.
My dreams have been becoming more of a reality lately...a sort of foretelling since we have been getting closer. I have had more then one that has come true and because of that I know that we will be together since I have also dreamed it. I will just wait patiently for the day. In the meantime I plan to carry on. Sex is something I want, but has been kinda ruined for me since I have been with the man I love already. I just have to not think about him when having sex with others....when and if I have sex with others since it's been hell LOL trying to find some.
Almost time to go back to school for the fall so that will help channel my concentration in other areas of my life. I need to retake 2 classes and then get the rest of them taken to graduate. Hopefully I will graduate next winter in December so I can move on to the next phase which is going to another school and going for bachelor's degree in CIS (Computer Information Systems).
Goodnight all and thanks to those that posted comments on my last post. Was very nice of you to say what you all said. Goodnight all. | | |
| Lo and Behold, today my freaking car got fixed. About damn time!  It cost around $122 to get it done and when I get home tonight I find that apparently some mishap at the bank has me short in funds...of course they are going to tell me it's my fault and that I should just deal with $150 worth of insufficient funds fees, but since I just wrote the check to fix my car, I can't see how that is going to help the situation.
Well since my car is fixed and I can get around, looks like I will be finding money somewhere to fix the problem so no further problems arise. Notice the hint of hope in my typing, because if this shit keeps up Regions Bank and I are going to have it out with each other and it will result in me changing banks. 
And as for S., we are still friends and act as such and I am ok with hanging back and letting his feelings get dealt with. I asked him today if he wanted company and he said he wanted alone time, so I know he is not in good spirits. I told him if he needs anything to just call me and he said ok, so I will just try to send positive thoughts his way and let him be tonight. Later | | |
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